Did you know?

Did you know you're amazing?

Whenever I see you, my hear begins pulsating?

I will forever continue updating and upgrading myself

Until the day that I will be attaining your acclaiming

But it is so frustrating that I remain unchanging

So I am left awaiting the day

That I become unfailing at changing for you

And my unveiling will lead to our love making

Then I will be sunbathing in my love for you...

 

Brother

I’ve done everything for you

I’ve kept your every secret

Listened to your every story

And yet despite everything I do for you

All I feel is regret,

Regret for ever helping your growing glory

The growing glory that fills your ego

The ego that keeps me wondering,

Wondering, whatever happened to us?

Let us not forget,

We used to hug every day

Bathe in the nude

Fall, Lay, Skip, Play like the gaily kids we were

And most of all we fought

But despite that constant fighting we still stuck together

Together forever.

And now? Now I’m left alone

Questioning what happened to us?

I’m left bleeding and bruised

While you stand over me

Telling me how useless I am, how you want to kill me

I used to dread the day you would leave home

And now I fear every day I have to come home. Come home to you

That very fear ripples through my every nerve

Fear that I will say a wrong word, a wrong phrase

And fear that, that wrong word and wrong phrase

Will bring you anger.

And me? Well I fear that, that anger will bring me pain

Pain that will never leave me.

Pain that keeps me questioning, what happened to us?

But despite all of this pain and questioning,

I still do everything for you

I still keep your every secret and listen to your every story

I continue to forgive you because I love you

I continue to love you because you are my brother

18th Birthday

“Most important weekend of my life” she says

But what does that really mean?

Well she is really just a drama queen

She calls me selfish and disrespectful

When really she is just being neglectful

Of the feeling I keep inside

Of the feeling I wish to hide

I’ve told her before

The reason why my feet drag on the floor

And yet she remains vain

Even when she understands my pain

She thinks of every possible way

To make me feel terrible for missing her 18^th birthday

Blogging

I don't enjoy blogging

I don't like expressing my feelings

It becomes depressing for people reading

I much prefer running, swimming, playing

And just plain living

But not blogging...

Oh how I dislike blogging

My writing is personal, sometimes demeaning

I don't like showing what I'm repressing

From the world that is beaming

Full of life and meaning

I don't need people knowing

I don't want them seeing

The repression of my depression